Midnight Crisis

decembrie 29, 2011

She’s a fucking mess and she has no idea what to do about it.

It seems like everything that happens around her is breaking her down for no reason, it’s like every little negative thing has an influence, and most of the time it is ten times bigger than a normal person can handle.

And they destroy her, people in general. They walk into her life without even her noticing, and they leave as fast as they came, without the smallest warning.

And sometimes it is like she can’t get over anything. She still stays up at night thinking about a boy that she used to be with months ago, thinking how stupid she was for letting him in, for believing all the lies he said.

She always feels like she’ll never be good enough. Like every time she starts caring for someone, they will eventually stop thinking about her existence and just move on with their life. And that’s what she should do too. But she can’t.

It’s like she’s building a wall, everyday. And it is growing bigger and bigger. Every time someone brings her down, she attaches another brick. And every time someone breaks her heart it’s like she uses all that negative energy to double the size of that wall. It’s her way of protecting herself, knowing that no one else will ever have her back.

And people tend to break her heart… a lot. And they don’t even notice it sometimes, and they don’t even mean it. But they do it anyway, and they’re tearing her apart. They’re destroying her, with they’re fucking fakeness, and with all their lies. And what’s destroying her the most is telling her how much you love her and leaving like… two weeks later.

She knows she’ll never trust again. Her wall is way too tall.

P.S.: I don’t know what was wrong with me last night, but I just like the way it came out and I decided to post it.


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